I run because I can. I run because it's something that I love to do. I run to see sunrises. I run to escape life. I run to enjoy time with my running friends. I run to spend time by myself. I run to sweat. I run to feel better about myself. I run to stay in shape. I run to be outside. I run because I like pushing myself. I run to feel the wind. I run because I am able.
Don't get me wrong, I sometimes ask myself the same questions. Of course, I love it. But, I sacrifice a lot of other things for my early morning wake ups and my weekend long runs. Sometimes, I question why. I have to remind myself that I'm not an elite and that I don't get paid to run and that I need to find a better balance. I've been working on this a lot post Apalachicola and am happy to say that my running has not suffered at all - if anything, it's gotten even better with the balance. But, just because I'm not an elite and am not paid, doesn't mean that it doesn't feel good to push. I know I have much faster times in me and that excites me. So, while I will never run a 2:25 marathon and may never break 3:00 in the full or 1:20 in the half ... I do feel like I have better running days ahead of me. I believe in myself and I like pushing to see what I can accomplish.
Enough of the why .... let's talk about the FUN stuff ... like ... I have a race this weekend!
I can honestly say that I just want to run well. I'm trying to convince myself that I can run that fast again, or even a tad bit faster (who doesn't love PR's). But, when I look back at my times that day, they are soooo fast! So, I'm trying to think of the other reason's why it is possible that I could do better:
- When I ran my 1:37:35, I had only ever trained for full marathons. My tempos and long runs were paced around my "goal marathon pace."
- It was HOTTTT that day.
- I didn't run good tangents. Hello, 13.23. That's a full extra minute!
- The course was hilly. I climbed 1,041 feet.
- I walked a 5K the day before while carrying a 3 year old for over half a mile of it.
- It's been three weeks, and I've incorporated half marathon pace into my tempos now.
- It's going to be 50 degrees and perfect.
- The course is flat.
- I am not walking a 5K on Saturday, but instead will do a two mile run: 1 mile easy, 1 at 7:15.
- Because if I want something bad enough, I can make it happen!!
There you have it ... possibly the most random post by me, ever!